it’s Friday and I’m glad
you are not here
I paint my nails a deep blue
to remind myself that I’m
not drowning in the ocean
of without you
It’s Friday and my favorite
dress is hanging in the laundry
I hear someone say your name
on the television
and wait for the knives in my throat
but there is only a quiet hum
a blank slate
The truth is
you are not the same
person I fell in love with
and yes, my God,
it hurt so bad at first, realizing that
it hurt so bad that waking up
every morning felt like
and stepping on a match
but now it’s easier
walking and talking and being a
human who left another human
on this Friday
the sky is so beautiful
I wonder how I ever went a day
without looking at it
you are somewhere in England
going through the motions
and I can’t be sorry for that, okay?
if you don’t believe me saying
it was for the best
believe me when I say
it was for the better
Before I met him, I would dance in the shower.
When he was in my life, I would think about showering with him.
After he left, I would sit on the ground in the shower and cry.
When I got over him, I showered so quickly there was no time for dancing, fantasies or tears.
Someone can invade the smallest parts of your life,
you won’t even realize it until you dance in the shower again
and wonder why you ever stopped.
"I was young. It was just the kind of shit that actresses have to go through. Somebody told me I was fat, that I was going to get fired if I didn’t lose a certain amount of weight. They brought in pictures of me where I was basically naked, and told me to use them as motivation for my diet. It was just that. [Someone brought it up recently] They thought that because of the way my career had gone, it wouldn’t still hurt me. That somehow, after I won an Oscar, I’m above it all. ‘You really still care about that?’ Yeah. I was a little girl. I was hurt. It doesn’t matter what accolades you get. I know it’ll never happen to me again. If anybody even tries to whisper the word ‘diet’, I’m like, ‘You can go fuck yourself.”
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Oscar-winner Jennifer Lawrence was told to diet or risk her career in Hollywood, the Hunger Games star has revealed.
Interviewed in Harper’s Bazaar magazine, Lawrence said she was labelled “fat” and encouraged to lose weight by producers.
"It was just the kind of shit that actresses have to go through," said the 23-year-old winner of this year’s Oscar for best actress. "Somebody told me I was fat, that I was going to get fired if I didn’t lose a certain amount of weight.
"They brought in pictures of me where I was basically naked, and told me to use them as motivation for my diet. They thought that because of the way my career had gone, it wouldn’t still hurt me."
Lawrence said she had developed a technique for dealing with such issues after Academy recognition for her role in David O Russell comedy drama Silver Linings Playbook and box office glory for last year’s The Hunger Games. “If anybody even tries to whisper the word ‘diet, I’m like, ‘You can go fuck yourself,” she said.
His pledge to her:
i will kill the spiders. i will share my fries with you when you’ve finished all yours and are still hungry. i won’t ever pop my collar. i will never be rude to your tummy- when i hear it growl and gurgle. i promise to bend down and reply respectfully. i will eat the mushrooms when we order the supreme pizza. i will kiss the papercuts. and the door-slammed finger, and the counter-bumped hip. i’ll try my hardest not to get annoyed when you whisper questions and comments during movies. i will be the big spoon. i will let you win at wrestling, sometimes. other times i will not. i will go faster. harder. i will pull when you want. and tease you when you don’t. i will send you random texts and leave you silly gifts. not always. not on schedule. just whenever i want to. whenever i think you need one. or seven. i will check your tire pressure. and remind you to take your car in. i will hold your hand. i will love you. i will love you. i will love you.